fri was 2.4 and lord of the dance. 2.4 i got 15.42. freak. 2 secs less and i would have scraped a freakin B. now i got C. toots. LORD OF THE DANCE ROCKED!!!!

tap tap tap. the rhythm is damn qi2 also. but the claps n slaps and i think some taps were prerecorded. and the spirit's part was recorded one lorh... it would have been more great if the girl played it live. i think my mum must think me crazy. one ticket costs $125 + $2 handling fee. and tap dont even concern me.. muahaha. immersing myself in the Arts. and then i want to see swan lake too. that's the famous ballet. cos i havent seen swan lake before. and i bought 3 flowers for my mum for mother's day. 1 geberar {spelling?] n 2 carnations.. i think she loved it. i love them too. (: i officially love flowers now. :D

sat was nothing. my mum fell ill. fever blah blah symptoms of flu. and today went to doctor for blood test for dengue fever.. and i tried to go on comp but the internet hanged on me

sun today is mother's day. and it rained from 8.30/9 to 1.30!!!!!!!!!!!!! whee. I LOVE RAIN I LOVE RAIN. haha. it never rains for long on weekdays.. always on sunday..bah

today i saw at my aunt's house the zodiac of the ram. it says rams are pessimistic. i wouldnt believe it if it was last year but now i do. nobody can know what exactly others are feeling. if one can, one must have some unorthodox methoeds or the person whose thoughts you know must be very shallow. i understand its a 2 way thing, like the road. its like sometimes macey calls me to go down then its like macey wait 4 me n kevy waits for jas vice versa. do you want me to wait for all four of us to go down together? if yes i shall.

i remember one fine friday morning which wasnt very long ago. jasmin was showing kevyna how to use the fitness corner. so i went over because i dont want to be left alone. so i sat down and worked one of the things there. kevyna and jasmin were done so they left. i was alone. they never looked back. "xiaogang, why don't you ever look back?" you never know what you leave behind everytime you turn away.

moving house sucks. must pack move then unpack again. must throw stuff away.. darn. and i still DON'T GET MY OWN ROOM. freakin toot. my mum doesnt want to sleep with my dad [has never slept on the same bad for 4/5 yrs] cos she says she cant move. i infer that either 1. my dad takes up a lot of space; or 2. my dad is damn sensitive to movement. how the hell did you 2 sleep together when i was -2 to 10 years old? you just told me to adapt today. tell that to my freaking dad. he is useless at home. he doesnt help my mum when he's her husband. wth. resentment. and he don't even trust me enuff to leave me alone at home when my mum go see doctor. he is a lazy pig. cant he even go with my mum? toots. you are such a fake. today yo say music is good. you told that to my aunt with a barely 2 years old child. and you ask if she's gonna send my cousin for music lessons. damn it. you know tears filled my eyes when you said that? i never knew or not you wanted me to go for music. but according to mum he asked her to ask me if i want to go but i said i didnt so she didnt want to force me either. thankew mum, dad

been posting loong looooooong posts. today: resentment + loneliness